I can’t seem to motivate myself to write here, but I want to nonetheless; therefore, I’ll compile a simple list to get myself started, or at least finished.
Ten things that happened while I was away:
- I created some excellent, short pieces of fight choreography, one or two of which particularly pleased me.
- I worked with mostly non-union actors who all, nevertheless, stayed true to the work on an a compressed schedule.
- I confirmed that some actors in the union exhibit poise onstage and off, but many simply reap the benefits of the genetic lottery.
- I learned about myself in my time alone, mostly that I might prefer solitude to the company of others.
- The cast bonded over physical training; I may attempt to enact such a policy on my actors in my next show.
- The director taught me much, but above all, I learned more humility: my vision is not unique, though it is strong.
- Meeting a famous person left me starstruck, but talking to him reminded me quickly to see people as humans, as trees in the Ram Dass sense.
- I charmed people when I decided to be charming, and alienated them by isolating myself.
- I treated my work a bit too much like work and forgot to find joy. The schedule may have contributed to that, as may have my unwillingness to open up to people.
- I completed a piece of art at a company that will likely increase my reputation. Maybe that will allow me to feel more confident.