I know I fucked up, but what can I do?
\nI never got used to loving you.
\nWatching options walk the street
\nEven with you, I was incomplete.<\/p>\n
Now in empty rooms, I sit and dream
\nOf what we were and could have been.
\n“It is not fair,” I hear you scream,
\n“to tear me up at every seam,<\/p>\n
To live your life like I’ll return
\nand stay so cool while there I burn.
\nI want to hate, I want to hurt,
\nI want to rip your life apart,<\/p>\n
Just so I can be free of you.
\nClosure’s not the term I’d use.”
\nSimple words can’t make amends
\nfor strangers now who once were friends.<\/p>\n
Board up your heart is my advice
\n’cause I’ll come calling once or twice,
\nbegging you to soothe my guilt
\nand sop up all the blood I’ve spilt.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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