It seems like I might actually have simply been a slave to brain chemistry, after all. My SSRI prescription ran out just before Winter Wonderland, and I spent a good deal of my day weeping, after a day of coding problems, and a night of less-than-stellar mass battle choreography.<\/p>\n
I nearly lost it on a kid who tried to “help” me by writing things for himself, and whom the high school teacher \/ director insists is “so good.” <\/p>\n
“Of the two of us,” I said, “which has 23 years of experience.” He demurred, but actually less than humbly. I railed at the traffic. I sniped at my wife. I slept poorly.<\/p>\n
Back for more tonight. Maybe I can sleep tomorrow.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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