it hasn’t happened yet
\n<\/p>\n
i was crossing the snow fields
\nin front of the capital building
\nit was christmas and i was alone
\nstrange city
\nstangers for friends
\ni was broke
\nas the carillons sang its song
\ni dreamt of success
\ni would be the best
\ni would make my folks proud
\ni would be happy <\/p>\n
it hasn’t happened yet
\nit hasn’t happened yet
\nit hasn’t happened<\/p>\n
yes there are nods in my directions
\nclap of hands
\na knowing smile
\nbut still
\ni was scared again
\ni’m scared again
\nfoot slipped
\ndevils fall and so did i
\nalmost
\ni’m high
\non yosemite
\nthe big grey wall
\nfear of falling
\nwhere to put my foot next
\nfear of failure
\ni whispered in the air
\nfear of failure
\ni’m afraid i’m gonna fall
\nfear of losing my hair
\nfalling
\nwhen is the mountain scaled
\nwhen do i feel i haven’t failed
\ni have to get it together man<\/p>\n
it hasn’t happened yet
\nit hasn’t happened yet
\nit hasn’t happened<\/p>\n
people come and say hello
\nok i can get to the front of the line
\nbut you have to ignore the looks
\nand yet
\ni’m waiting for that feeling of contentment
\nthat ease at night when you put your head down and the rhythm slow to sleep
\nmy heads sways and eyes start awake
\nim there not halfway between sleep and death
\nbut looking into
\neyes wide open
\ntrying to remember
\nwhat i might have done
\nshould’ve done
\nat my age i need serenity
\ni need peace<\/p>\n
it hasn’t happened yet
\nit hasn’t happened yet
\nit hasn’t happened yet
\nit hasn’t happened
\nit hasn’t happened<\/p>\n
–William Shatner<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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