I only want to say if there is a way
\nTake this cup away from me
\nFor I don’t want to taste its poison
\nFeel it burn me, I have changed
\nI’m not as sure as when we started<\/p>\n
Then I was inspired, now I’m sad and tired
\nListen, surely I’ve exceeded expectations
\nTried for three years, seems like thirty
\nCould you ask as much from any other man?<\/p>\n
But if I die
\nSee the saga through and do the things you ask of me
\nLet them hate me, hit me, hurt me, nail me to their tree<\/p>\n
I’d wanna know, I’d wanna know my God
\nI’d wanna know, I’d wanna know my God
\nWanna see, I’d wanna see my God
\nWanna see, I’d wanna see my God<\/p>\n
Why I should die?
\nWould I be more noticed than I was ever before?
\nWould the things I’ve said and done matter any more?<\/p>\n
I’d have to know, I’d have to know my Lord
\nHave to know, I’d have to know my Lord
\nHave to see, I’d have to see my Lord
\nHave to see, I’d have to see my Lord<\/p>\n
If I die what will be my reward?
\nIf I die what will be my reward?
\nHave to know, I’d have to know my Lord
\nHave to know, have to know my Lord<\/p>\n
Why should I die?
\nWhy should I die?<\/p>\n
Can you show me now that I would not be killed in vain?
\nShow me just a little of your omnipresent brain
\nShow me there’s a reason for your wanting me to die
\nYou’re far too keen on where and how and not so hot on why<\/p>\n
Alright I’ll die
\nJust, just watch me die
\nSee how, see how I die
\nSee how I die<\/p>\n
Then I was inspired, now I’m sad and tired
\nAfter all I’ve tried for three years
\nSeems like ninety<\/p>\n
Why then am I scared to finish what I started?
\nWhat you started, I didn’t start it<\/p>\n
God, Thy will is hard but You hold every card
\nI will drink Your cup of poison
\nNail me to Your cross and break me
\nBleed me, beat me, kill me, take me now
\nBefore I change my mind<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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